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 Things I want:

- A new car

- new cat food for my cats

- A new phone 

- a horse trailer 

- a new horse sadly

- more friends 

The jury is still out: 

-  Does pineapple belong on pizza? Yes!

- Is a new iPhone worth upgrading?

- is reality TV staged or real life?

- Do energy drinks actually help 

- Is owning a horse worth the money

- Is being my own boss a dream or just overwhelming

My media obsessions:

- Mok bangs 

- TikTok

- Instagram

- Facebook reels 

- cat adoption websites

- youtube cleaning vlogs 

Things that bother me:

- People who I can hear chewing

- Having clutter all over my house

- having to load the dishwasher when the rule is to load all your own dishes 

- waiting on people 

 Is owning a horse worth the money?

Is owning a horse even worth the money?

    even though I love my horse more than anything, I can’t help but wonder sometimes—is he really worth all the money? I work nonstop just to afford him, and it feels like all he gives me in return is trouble. He bucks me off, flips over when I saddle him, headbutts me, and does a bunch of other frustrating things. It makes me so mad, and sometimes I even start to dislike him. But at the end of the day, isn’t this what I always wanted?

When I first got him, I thought we’d love each other, go barrel racing, and have fun together. But now, to be honest, I’m just scared of him. I even put him up for sale at one point. Then, one of his past owners reached out and told me about her experiences with him. She said he was a huge pain for her too and was surprised he was still acting this way after all these years—seven, to be exact. But she also told me about a therapy that might help him. So, that’s the next step. Maybe things can still change.